shopping

today, i went shopping for 12 hours! i'm so tired! i'm about to go to bed, right after i check my facebook and myspace. tomorrow, MAYBE, jakob might take me to Wal*Mart to get the rest of my paint so i can finish my stupid room! i will be hanging with jake all day tomorrow. walmart, youth group, and he's sleeping over. i have alot to do tomorrow so goodnight.

p.s shelby, kyle, etc... you guys should come to youth group tomorrow! i will be there.

p.p.s someday, i will make longer posts. :)


GOODNIGHT!

the title

i haven't posted for i think 2 days. been busy and really didn't feel like it.
on saturday, i watched Year One with my dad, it wasn't so bad. i found $20 on the ground that night.
on sunday, my dad ditched me for a fathers day BBQ. i know... sad...
today, Jakob and I hung out. we tried the geocaching thing again and it sucked...again! we can't find that friekin thing! its unbelieveable! there was so much posion oak! i mean bushes of poison oak and trees covered. i think jakob got some. we got to my house and we watched Taxi. great movie. one of my favorites. i didn't ask him to sleepover tonight because i never finished my room. it's my punishment. so tomorrow i'm going to finish it. but probably not. i ran out of paint and i'm going shopping tomorrow at salem so i'm going to finish it probably wednesday morning. jakob and i are going to go to youth group (that you guys are going 2 because i didn't see you guys last week!) and then he's sleeping over. stay up all night as usual! ruin my sleep schedule again! tomorrow i'm going shopping at salem, but not only that, the BMW is going to get serviced so they are going to give us a choice on a rental! yeah! can't wait! and shopping...shopping.... yeah... so as shelby says, i leave you with this...

what luck i have

so i ran out of paint! but you know what! idc anymore...movie tonight.
watching Year One
9:30pm Albany.
MAYBE.
call me if you want to go.
whitney needs to call me back to give me the latest news.


i need more paint... i will be painting/ rearranging on fathers day.
Great!
worst son in the world blogging right now! :(

alone.

so my mom is switching over to AT&T for the iPhone. and my dad already has one. so i will be on verizon...alone.... :( hate verizon...their phones suck now. they used to have AWESOME phones but they just been going down hill in the last two years... i have one more year on my contract...but i love my phone so that will be easy but still... i want AT&T....

what?!

so i have lotz to do today! i just was slacking yesterday! i have to finish painting/ rearranging my bedroom and bathroom before i go to the movies this afternoon....maybe.... and if i don't i have to do this while we have a party (another BBQ, my dad loves them) and my dad will probably be giving tours of the house....... that will be embarrasing.... so this is my second night for sleeping in the office.... and hopefully i wont have to sleep here tomorrow night! i want my bed back! so yeah we're going to see the movie Year One (maybe), the only people that know about it is Marshall and Whitney.... if you want to come we are going tomorrow! yeah lotz of info! i will be posting a schedule later today about times and....stuff....

p.s. please don't make me forget to ask my dad about how many friends i can bring for the joined birthday/camping/big shiny boat/TOTALLY AWESOME/FUN!/ etc./etc./ shut up/ trip thingy of kyle, emily g, and derek! kk thanx! :)

just wow.

today, i thought i was going to be bored all day! well i wasn't spent my afternoon with marshall and jakob! marshall invited me to watch UP at the kuhn theater and i invited jakob. after the movies, we all didn't want to go home yet and we had $5.00 all together! yeah! we went to mcdonalds and got stuff from the doller menu then after went to walmart for the longest time at the electronic section AND the toy section! spent most of the time at the toy section! i got a Linkin Park CD meteora. I haven't found a song from Linkin Park i don't like! best band! they are unique. add different styles to their songs. so i just got home and i'm listening to it now. my parents and grandma arn't here so... PARTY AT MY HOUSE! haha! jk..............maybe...........

Joined Birthday!

so i guess i'm helping Kenzi plan for my birthday with Kyle and Emily's. I finally talked with my dad about it and i guess we are going camping at Detroit Lake and renting a boat. Friday night and Saturday night, August 7 and 8 and going home August 9. OK! Hopefully Kenzi and Emily's parents will allow it because my mom will be in the Philippines during this which means she isn't going. If they can go i will be excited! if they can't then they will come for a day! idk if i can bring alot of friends yet so don't mark your calendars yet! ok i will be posting another post tonight...

I'll just join you.

Everyone is changing there name and pictures....
so i should do the same!
tell me what you think....

good will come out of this

so for the last two days i've been rearranging and painting my room and bathroom. well not rearranging my bathroom. it's stressful! i hate paint and how many times you have to paint over the same spot over and over again so you can't see the other color underneath! wow i can make a poem out of that! name it "underneath" it can start out like, "why do you cover me up... why do you try so hard... i will always be there.... you can't get rid of me..." or something like that. anyways! this whole experiece is making me moody. i hate it! never been moody! ;) but something good is going to come out of this, i'm basically getting a room/ bathroom makeover. getting new closet doors, new shower door, mirror for bathroom, light fixures. stressfull yet fun. going to home depot sometime this week. so i'm going to be sleeping in my grandma's room for 2 nights or more and shes sharing her bathroom! like old times! so yeah this is basically going to be the rest of my week.

people know how to write!

So i found this....i'm jealous, i wish i could write like this!

I'm an idiot
an idiot in love
and yet I'm lucky
lucky cause I found you.

Your cry makes my heart aches
Your disappointment makes my heart crumble
Yet, your smile makes my heart flutters
and your kisses heal all the aches

You're my heart, you're my love
You hold my heart in your hands,
and that's exactly where I want it to be
Nothing can ever change that

I wish we'd last forever
because I can't imagine
not being able to turn around
and see you there

So, my love
Here we are again
At this juncture again
And I still make the same vow
to love you
for better or worse
'till death do us part

stupidity I say!

for the last 2 nights, i got six hours of sleep. idk why, i normally sleep great! but this whole this with Poems and hanging with Jakob just gets my sleep schedule out of place! stupid! I "woke up" at 5am and at 8am, i couldn't handle it anymore, i fell on the couch, totally out! i slept intill now! what do i do?! I'm STILL tired. Jakob slept though, he had a golf thing today so he had to wake up early. it was really funny! he brought his lamp and alarm clock!
Even though i got limited sleep, i didn't just stay up, my mind went blank while my eyes were open, wierdest thing ever! Hopefully i get to sleep tonight! I don't think i will be going to youth group this week since I go every OTHER week, I'm tired, and Jakob goes every other week to. so that's how that's playing out. need to see other friends soon. don't get me wrong, this has been a fun week with Jakob so far, but i have other friends to! :) We will hang out again thursday and MAYBE friday. If we hang out friday, we are going to watch Year One in theaters, one of the reasons i didn't want to have the party friday, hehe! :) but hopefully you catched the word MAYBE, i might be going to the coast with my dad and grandpa. FATHERS DAY WEEKEND,way funner then mothers day, definately! OH! and Fathers Day is Sunday! SON-day! yeah, it's also my weekend! lol. I don't think i missed anything, so yeah comment my posts, they're lonely, so am I. :(

#20

mom is sick. bleh. her neck hurts and she has a headache so I bet after she sleeps she will be fine. she better be. I have plans. Jakob still better be able to sleepover. she always does this to me. when i'm sick, she thinks i'm faking and doesn't take care of me! so she gets it right back sucka! i'll be posting later for more news!

p.s this is blog #20. not doing so bad on this blog thingy! :)

Words

I litterally just wrote this. watching tv. hope you like it. :) it might not make much sense.


Words

All I say is carless words.
I care more than I can explain,
More than I can fathom.
I wish their was a deeper more passionate way to explain.
I must find a way
but before I get a chance,
This is what I give you my love,

I love you.
You are my reason to live,
My life, my soul.
Death would be consistent,
Than be without you,
My sweetheart.

Every day I feel I lose you more and more,
But I must not,
I must be patient.
Yet out there
You will always have a piece of my heart
Forever.
Even in the after life.
Everyday I will strive to find a way,
To get my love out there atleast.
This is what I leave you with.
For the rest of my life,
I will find a way to give you what you deserve,
What you want.

Risk

so just so you know this,
i don't think it's really a poem.
but it's fine. doesn't really show my REAL appriciation.


Risk
No one will figure her out completely,
Unless you have her in your life forever.
She has a beautiful and colorful personality.
She doesn't care what you think of her.
She is her.
You see she accepts it.
She is wild and free,
free to be her. :)
When she is sad, out of place.
It causes you pain also.
Whatever she's feeling,
you feel.

She is beyond beautiful.
No one deserves to be in her path.
She has a halo above her.
But if you ever encounter her path?
You've found your way.
You have nowhere else to be.
Unless it's with her.
Without her,
Part of yourself dies.
Leaving you bleeding on the floor.
She over powers your soul.
She doesn't even have to try.
It's a natural reaction.

She can break your heart if she wants to.
You have no right to question it.
It's truly dangerous to love her.
She can break you to the worst extent.
But it's worth the ride.
To take the risks.
Life would be boring without them.

That's why I love her.
She's dangerous and a risk.
It might be a tough journey to get there,
but once I'm there,
I WILL be complete.

geocaching sux

jakob and i tried it. couldn't find it. walked for a hour and nothing! KILL!
never going to go on the website ever again!
when we got back home, 2 hours later! we watched blade II
that was fun. then we watched "ask a ninja" on youtube intill now!
that is what i have been doing since my last blog! no joke!
Jakob just left.

p.s the poem "Risks" is coming very soon!