way to busy

im seriously way to busy to post anything right now. but im thinking of doing blogspot again. i really didn't do much ever since Hawaii. so um yeah, remind me this weekend to maybe post again. when i don't have so much homework! seriously the homework is unbelieveable! their is always something to do!!! so yeah.... don't forget to remind me.

new email address

just spreading the word. but check myspace and facebook for it. i shouldn't put it where it's possible for other people to see it.

Just the start of a busy weekend...

today, i went to albany planning to get some school clothes. (i know, who shops at albany! my moms coming home so shes going to take me shopping, maybe she will let me bring someone...shelby...lol) than my dad hits me with the whole, "why don't you just buy clothes online!" so i decided to do that. but we were at the mall and i had $15 off shoes. so i got some choarcal (spell check) colored converse. i love converse. and these are my favorite converse i've ever bought! i also bought some socks. i went home and went to americaneagle.com but they were adding more clothes and doing some inprovement with the website so i couldn't use it. so i went to aeropostale.com and got all my clothes. so i got all the clothes i could possibly need! (for a week... lol) but my dad is worried that my class mates will call me "aeropostale boy" so he said, "let your mom take you to the mall to get a different brand of clothes." WHAT?!?! i've never thought i would hear my dad say get more clothes because i have to much of one brand. crazy. he's really going over board with the whole, "no tuition" thing! but when would I ever turn down a shopping trip. lol! so i'm basically LOVING my parents right now even though it's a little scary and wierd.

tomorrow, people are working on the yard to clean it up.
then on sunday, emily's bday party. fun stuff! :)
then on monday, we have maids and carpet cleaners coming to house to....clean the house...duh!
then on tuesday, my mom AND grandma is coming home from the Philippines and we have to pick them up because they won't take the shuttle for some odd reason. my dad said i could at most drive to wilsonville. maybe. that's something right?

so yeah busy busy stuff.

P.S this is still a maybe, but for Jakob's 17th birthday, i might be going to San Antonio, Texas to go to Six Flags, October 7-11. just us. no parents. we would be staying at my Aunt's house so the only stuff we would pay for is the plane ticket and ticket into the park. wow. i just have a busy year!

just listing

this is all the stuff i can remember that i did since my last post...

got addicted to the series Bones.
i came back from hawaii.
got bored.
turned 15.
had a GREAT birthday party!
got addicted to the series Lost
decided to go to LHS.
passed my permit test.
got my statement of enrollment from LHS
picked up my permit.
went camping with austin. marshall. hannah. hannah's mom. and sister at yellowbottem.
went running with hannah's mom and is now doing it every thursday at 8am. till school then i'm getting a new schedule.
went school clothes shopping online which was really fun and love the whole no dress code thing.
got some school supplies.
figured out that Shelby is coming to the same school as i am!
drove to sweet home.
dad picked up the Model T.
did 4 loads of laundry.
typing this post.....

ok i want to do a post tomorrow! don't let me forget! text me so i don't forget alright?!

blogger

i'm taking a break for a while. since i went to hawaii, i relized that i can actually have a life without blogspot and i don't really have anything to talk about right now so... i will be back. sometime. idk.

p.s i'm going to LHS for one week and if i don't like it i'm coming back to ELCA. just so you know.

bored as heck!

my gosh, i have successfully did nothing all week! i don't even feel like talking about hawaii! i'm so tired and bored!! what is wrong with me!! well i want to see the new harry potter movie at the kuhn tonight. you guys probably saw it while i was gone but....that's stupid. you didn't see it with me yet. so...not the same! :) lol jk. so yeah. we should do something about it.

hawaii

so i'm still tired. i will post about the trip tomorrow. stupid jetlag!

buh bye world!.....for now

well their is no way i'm going to get one tomorrow morning. i will be so tired and cranky.
but i will post about my trip to hawaii early afternoon. keep in touch k? o and i might bring soiveinears (spell check)... maybe... so yeah. their BETTER be WiFi at the hotel. or... i will die... but maybe away from myspace, facebook, and blogspot is what i need. idk. i will make my decision when i get there.

HOPEFULLY I WON'T DIE! HAHAHA! .......maybe

BYE!


p.s if i do die, tell janae.... sorry. and etc.... everything i told you guys!

good girls go bad......not about the song.....

so i'm really getting bored with this blogspot thing. i think the title part bugs me alot! i never know what to put there! it's annoying. so yesterday i went to Janae's youth group and i think the message was the same message that made janae make her decision of leaving me (bleeding on the floor) lol. it made me look at things differently. Janae is a destraction to my faith and a demon works through her that is specified for me. hmmm.... that's me and janaes closest connection. we share demons! :( the message made me remember about...everything... i was so distracted that whole time. i didn't notice anyone.
i was planning on not going this time. i didn't want to see her. well that's what i was telling myself. and than she semi flirted a little to get me to go like, "i NEED to see you before i leave for camp. i would be sad" and etc... and, of course, i went. then she didn't pay attention to me. hahaha! shocker right?! after youth... she asked,
"how was youth for you?"
i said, "I've been away from Him for a year. ever since u broke up with me. i felt.... well i'm not going into detail. and it put me down. satan gets to me through you . no offence. and i get dreams of dreams of killing myself...etc.... im tired."
she said, "ya. you know i had those problems too that why i quit guys... but what about now?...did youth do anything? do you feel different?"
i said, "truthly, no. made me remember..."
she said, "Try to open up...give God all those problems!"

then i stopped talking.... i'm stuck in this... and i can't kill myself because that is "satan getting through me". that's what youth said, and i need to put the armor of God. hmmm.... i've been dead for a year....




p.s going to hawaii tomorrow. should be packing. i need a vacation from this mess.

busy busy

today, i think i'm sleeping over at tonn's to see anthony whom i never seen in like what 3-4 years! i think it will be interesting. i try to do the whole blogging thing on my ipod but it only allows me to read comments and stuff so i probably wont post for the next day or 2. then tomorrow i'm going to go shopping one more time before my trip. and since no one wants to go shopping with me anymore since i'm at the mall for more than 6 hours, i have to go with my mom. that's fine. just don't have REAL friends anymore :) i'm leaving around 12pm and going to go crazy getting everything i can touch! muhahaha! i'm the malls worst nightmare!!!! :) than the day after tomorrow, i can't do ANYTHING! i have to pack, plan, and etc. than friday, going. to. hawaii. so i can't believe i couldn't see much friends before the middle of july. wierd right? but august will be fun! my mom will be gone and i can do alot more stuff! the first thing my dad and i are going to do is burn my couch and buy new ones! yes! finally! i hate those things! so during this whole time i have to figure out what school to go to. before hawaii! great. just fantastic. ELCA- not get my moneys worth because the teachers suck and i don't have that much options as classes anyway, but i know the people there and i can get insight from like marshall. and it's a Christian society, im feel safe there and God will be with that place. but just so you know, i'm going to LHS anyways Jr year and Sr. year. i am forcing myself to go there for those years. LHS- won't have to pay. WAY more options. get to pick 5 of my classes such as welding, maching, and design classes. and more money for college. but i won't know much people there and it's a big change. i don't know what's expected.

i'm leaning more to LHS, fyi. because it leads to a bright and easy future. and ELCA i'm going to suffer. and my dad thinks ELCA kinda sucks because i didn't get my SAT tests done! i can't believe the teachers there! they couldn't get a replacement for mrs. collins and my dad is furious about that. and MR Hill never gave me my last test back and he never told me my grade before hand even if he asked, he makes excuses such as "my computers off, get back at it later" so yeah, now you know what i mean about the whole ,"not getting my moneys worth"

do you agree? what do you think i should do? PLEASE comment! :) thanks.

can't ever think of a clever title

so i went to stayton for fireworks... that was fun... the whole town knows how to do a great 4th of July! their was actually trafic and you see fireworks everywhere in a neighborhood! when we past by a house... they're having a HUGE party! amazing.
Today, i went to the lake..again.. and i was there for 8 hours. wow. im very tired!!!
im going to Hawaii in 5 days. it's going to be stressful 5 days. i have to start my list. NOT PACKING YET. my mom is going to take me shopping one more time before i leave. i want to bring some...friends... i have to ask first though so i will keep in touch. kk?
goodnight. :)

water

for the last two days i've been in water. hmmm... loving it! so Jakob couldn't come to the lake today because he forgot about his camping trip, who would want to go camping in this weather! whatever, so i invited marshall and he came! that easy! the water was great... that's about it. OH we found this giant log and we got these to sticks that look like a paddle. it worked, kinda, i kept falling and marshall kept making it sink! gosh! lol! :) well afterwards we went to the REAL A&W in sweet home! (lebanon's suck) we had the best Root Beer Floats....ever.... like scary good... im scared... than we had a papa burger! my gosh! kill! yeah... wow i just got really tired.... so i'm not having that Fourth of July party anymore so we can keep the fireworks for new years! were i'm having a BIG party! you guys better come! gosh!!! tomorrow im going to Stayton for fireworks... i mean like a HUGE firework show and i get front seats! yeah!!! who wants to come? eh eh? call/text me idk if i can bring friends yet... i'm going to ask tomorrow... so yeah... stay in touch! kk.

summer getting better

today, i went swimming in the river with Jakob, Shauna, and Shauna's friends. I normally don't complain about water, but that was cold. but we swam down the current a little and found a warm spot. warm for oregon! Jakob and I played in the water fall. had fun today and actually tired! tomorrow, jake and i are going to the lake tomorrow, because i guess their is a heat wave, weird huh?! oregonians are weak! it's like all over the news! the high today was 96 degress! OMG WERE ALL DOING TO DIE!!! gosh... idiots... go to the philippines you wimps! i'm in a bad mood now! :( so yeah i was the first one in the river, so hopefully i will be the first one in the lake tomorrow! probably! well i will post tomorrow.... i guess


p.s i went to the fireworks tent with Jakob to see the Clarks... but kyle wasn't there :( so we hung out with Kurt and Kameron, we went to walmart and we stayed there for like 3 hours... time flies! we also saw Zoe and Zack. hmmm.... i actually saw friends today! i didn't even have plans today!


NIGHT!

Transformers 2

no story line... lots of graphics though! don't regret seeing it! i saw some of my friends... i wished i saw more... gosh! so in the theater, i had to sit by...her and it was awkward and unconfortable. i was squirming in my seat the whole time. She just had to make it worst by doing the friekin same thing. im still jittery from it... what is my problem and what should i do next? i mean. i can't even sit right next to her. i can't even look at her. seriously. i thought i was holding it in but i guess not. they caught me :( whatever...

p.s 4 of July party at my house! well trying... anytime i plan...it doesn't work. never. we got some of those real fireworks from washington. yaya! so were having like a BBQ and all that crap...but we don't have that much washington fireworks...so kyle...if you come... bring some FREE fireworks from your tent! lol! i'm not paying! :)

stupid China shipping!

So fireworks are really expensive now! they said it's expensive because of some kind of China raising their price on shipping or somthing like that. next time we are going to go up to the Indian Reservation 2 hours up from vancover. WAY cheaper! we normally get fireworks for both the 4 of July and New Years. but we only have enough for the 4 of July. Sad i know! because it's going to be 2010! a first decade in the 21st. century! right? haha! idk. well yeah, my dad said some of my friends can come up for REAL fireworks.... you know..... you guys should come! :)


p.s JAW EXPANDER OUT TOMORROW!!!!

the future looks bright...i think...

Marshall and I got $45 Saturday. i love the whole $10 an hour thing. just loving it.
first, we splitted giant frieken logs.
second, stacked the old logs from last year in the garage.
third, stacked the ones we cut.
fourth, washed my dads truck.
fifth, cut my thumb open from marshall running into a hose....don't ask. lol! :)

Today, I went to the lake. the water was a little chilly but my dad could only stay in a while. it's almost the perfect temperature! almost. we also went canoeing. that was fun 2! after that i went home and had a dr. pepper. not bad. not my favorite but not bad. i watched the series "Beauty and the Geek" season just ended. is really fun to watch! i can't really explain it now because i'm really tired but yeah! look it up on the internet, the might have some free episodes you can watch! i can do that for hours! been watching "Wipeout" on the internet! anyway,

Tomorrow, I'm going up to Washington to get the annual fireworks! lol! shhh... don't tell. well maybe the Lebanon Sherriff that lives down the street from us... Haha! He doesn't care and our neighbors let off a cannon at midnight! my neighborhood knows how to party on the fourth of July!

Tuesday, i'm getting my jaw expander out and i don't have to wear rubber bands anymore! =D
then i just i have to wear braces after that! that's fine! :)


p.s i'm going to LHS next year, which means i will see most of my friends from ELCA next year. lol!

p.p.s i will explain the whole "Beauty and the Geek" later, i'm tired.

p.p.p.s I'm going to Hawaii a week from friday! :)

p.p.p.p.s i'm tired of all the p.s!

p.p.p.p.p.s SERIOUSLY! SHUT UP! yeah i'm getting grouchy, going to bed.


NIGHT!

Premonition and the Missing Piece. (please read and comment. very important and serious post to me.)

i'm the worst friend ever. i was planning to go to youth group and i told kyle i was going and to make sure he was going. well he did i guess, and i lost track of time when i was hanging out with another friend at walmart who i see all the time. i feel so bad kyle, i have to make it up to you sometime. text me. call me. ok?

today, i watched movies with lots of death in it. both of them were classified as romance, suspence, and drama. as you guys know, that's exactly what i need right now! yaya! (if you don't think that hypothetical, you don't know me.) anyways, in both movies, one of the loved ones die. both movies were seven pounds and premonition. it makes you think, what possiblely would happen to you if you lost your loved one, your other half, spouse, crush...etc... i know people have been through it and i feel so bad for them. that must be one of the toughest thing to go through. in seven pounds, Ben Thomas (will smith) was working on his phone while driving, he ran into a bus and killed seven people including his wife in the car. after this, he is depressed like no other and impersonates an IRS agent. He tries to find people who need new body parts. such as the blind man, a boy that needed bone marrow, his best friend that needed new lungs, a person who needed a new liver, and his new love who needed a heart. he went around a met/talked to the people who needed these things. he kills himself and he wanted his best friend to promise to get all those people what they needed from them. he was affraid to fall in love again. but in the end the blind man and his new love get together. really good movie but i won't watch it again. i wouldn't be that brave to do all that. i feel guilty and selfish now.
Premonition is about a women who lost her husband in a car crash. this movie is hard to explain because i still don't get it. the movie jumped around. but the main part for me is, is that she lost her husband 3 times in the movie, don't ask why, just watch the movie. wouldn't that be tough losing the one you love 3 times. devistating! one person shouldn't have to go through that! ever! that's just plain wrong. at the end though she had to kids and had one on the way, she still has some part of him. but just as shelby said, love is different, from the love you feel for your kids, to the love you feel for a spouse. maybe she will fall in love again, but that's hard enough. BUT it's just a movie right?..........idk screwed up life we have to deal with.

I've been thinking alot of myself in my situation, i read something last night. if you are still falling for you Ex, support them in any decision they have. talk to them regularly so they feel the have some kind of friendship towards you, still that bond. make them know that you are there for them if they have any problems, they will feel dependant upon you. talk to them about the break up, the situation, how you feel about it and how they feel about it, face to face and alone. very important that it is face to face and alone. if it was your fault that you broke up, (definately not, lol) let her know that you are truly sorry for it. if you follow this, they might change their mind about you. might want to get back together.
i've been basically doing the total opposite than all that, i think that's my problem. isn't the internet wonderful! it points out your flaws! lol. i actually kind of see why she broke up with me, this might be totally not it but you know, it probably is. this will be the first time i will say this so don't judge me. SHE was the first one to make a move. i was the first to say 'i love you' but it took me 2 hours to say it over the phone as to her it took her 2 seconds. i was weak and didn't deserve her, i had to always ask permission because i didn't want to go to far with her, i didn't want to cross her bounderies, but she didn't set them. maybe, if i was more of a frieken man, and made the first move, tell her 'i love you' in person, and made her feel the way she deserves, i would still have her, but i did the opposite and i feel so bad for it... why didn't i do it! i love/loved her always! maybe i was and still is... very shy around people i love. i don't want to lose her so much that that is all i think about, not losing her, which made her stray away from me more and more. i should of been thinking about, not losing her, but keeping her, loving her, enjoying every second of her time as if it was my last, making her feel like she needed and deserved to be. what a selfish freak i am! why did i do this! how can i be such a frieken coward! and WHY does this possibly make me feel better? is it because i finally told someone my flaws? something i never shared with someone? maybe so. to image i still could of had her today, this minute. it just kills me inside yet i feel better that i realized what i did. :)
thank you for reading all of this...shows that you care about me! lol. please comment.


p.s tomorrow, it's Marshall's first day of work. hmmm... yeah. i'm spraying poison oak! yaya! not joking! spraying poison oak is really fun! it teaches those frieken things whose boss! :) lol

shopping

today, i went shopping for 12 hours! i'm so tired! i'm about to go to bed, right after i check my facebook and myspace. tomorrow, MAYBE, jakob might take me to Wal*Mart to get the rest of my paint so i can finish my stupid room! i will be hanging with jake all day tomorrow. walmart, youth group, and he's sleeping over. i have alot to do tomorrow so goodnight.

p.s shelby, kyle, etc... you guys should come to youth group tomorrow! i will be there.

p.p.s someday, i will make longer posts. :)


GOODNIGHT!

the title

i haven't posted for i think 2 days. been busy and really didn't feel like it.
on saturday, i watched Year One with my dad, it wasn't so bad. i found $20 on the ground that night.
on sunday, my dad ditched me for a fathers day BBQ. i know... sad...
today, Jakob and I hung out. we tried the geocaching thing again and it sucked...again! we can't find that friekin thing! its unbelieveable! there was so much posion oak! i mean bushes of poison oak and trees covered. i think jakob got some. we got to my house and we watched Taxi. great movie. one of my favorites. i didn't ask him to sleepover tonight because i never finished my room. it's my punishment. so tomorrow i'm going to finish it. but probably not. i ran out of paint and i'm going shopping tomorrow at salem so i'm going to finish it probably wednesday morning. jakob and i are going to go to youth group (that you guys are going 2 because i didn't see you guys last week!) and then he's sleeping over. stay up all night as usual! ruin my sleep schedule again! tomorrow i'm going shopping at salem, but not only that, the BMW is going to get serviced so they are going to give us a choice on a rental! yeah! can't wait! and shopping...shopping.... yeah... so as shelby says, i leave you with this...